Shoes and Coats


People ask if it’s time.

“Time to pick up his things?”

His shoes, his coats, his clothes.

Washed and as he would expect to find them.

But words cannot detract from the miles that we’ve walked together.

Your Wedding Shoes.

They’re stacked like worlds coliding each taking up a portion of my mind.

The shoes you got for being his best man.

The shoes you got for walking

Each miles and miles and miles of stories and life and stories of life.

They say if you take a mile in my shoes will you understand.

I’ve walked in your size 9s for 3 months now and I’m no closer to finding you.

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Women in Tech – Gaming & Technology Edition

In a world that is so dominated by men there is precious little more daunting in a journalist’s career than being a woman or non-binary person in tech. My background is in technology of all forms; mobiles, laptops and gaming. You may have already found me around the internet and on Twitter as @ThisIsSpecious and on websites like Big Boss Battle or Android Central.

As part of my new series on highlighting people who you need to know in the industry, I will talk to you about the women & non-binary people in technology who you should keep your eyes on!


There are a tremendous amount of women doing wonderful things in gaming journalism at the moment. So, when making these lists it is nearly always impossible to narrow them down to a top three. To bring new people to your attention, I’m making sure that in these listings these are the women who don’t have a huge following and whose work deserves more attention.

Amanda Farough

Amanda is one of those unique people in the industry who will have been behind a lot of your favourite sites and yet you may not have realised it. She has been a founder of her own discord where she helps young writers in their journey through journalism. She is an endlessly giving and nurturing person, and a phenomenal writer and editor. She is a determined person, dedicated to her team and to delivering precise and informative content.

You can find a link to all of Amanda work right here.

Reb Valentine

I will always have a soft spot for Reb as I have had the pleasure of working with her in other publications but that is for a great reason. Reb has a writing style that is just a pleasure to read and connect with. Now she has found a home with Gamesindustry.biz she has found a space where she deep dive into the heart of the gaming industries biggest issues and will take you with her for that journey.

You can find Reb and her work over at Gamesindustry.biz.

Tayna DePress

Director of I Need Diverse Games, Twitch Partner, Conference Speaker, Diversity Liaison for GaymerX, Tayna is someone who should need no introduction – but somehow still is one of the most underestimated women in the video games scene. You don’t have to look too far to realise that this woman is in everything that is worth having a name on; DnD streams, Logitech team. Tayna’s ambition in life is to make the gaming world a more inclusive one for everyone to enjoy.

You can find out all about Tayna and how to support her work here.

Julie Muncy

Commonly found chatting to me about anything and everything to do with Kingdom Hearts, you will also find her work over at Wired, and Weekend Editor over at @io9. Presently is ready to be snapped up by the best outlets out there. You can find her contact details over on her Twitter.

Mim McDonald

Mim is the wizard behind some of your most beloved gaming magazines being Operations Editor, @OPM_UK and @edgeonline. A wonderfully gifted and gentle human, who is just one of the most sincerely beautiful people I’ve ever met. When she’s got some down time from being the backbone of her work force she’s interested in all with a vintage, alternate reality or retro-futuristic theme. You can find her personal blog here

Sam Greer

Sam is the hugely talented producer of Glass House Games. Her work can be found through various places on the internet, seriously, everywhere. A hugely talented and capable human who is worthy of so much acclaim it’s silly. When she’s not busy doing that you can be assured she’s over on Twitter trying to squeeze as many gifs about Lightening from Final Fantasy 13 as is humanly possible. 

Sam Loveridge

You might know Sam best from her work as Global Editor-in-Chief for @GamesRadar. When she’s not busy running the show over at Games Radar she can be found being her very awesome self over on her twitter

Mobile Technology

Some argue there aren’t a lot of women in mobile journalism. I’m here to debunk that myth and showcase some of the best and brightest that the tech scene has seen. By there being more women writing and talking about tech, we can unravel the complicated knot that is women in technology. There are lots of reasons women don’t get a predominant say in mobile technology. Much like games, they see us as being non-existent in the space, however there are many women being involved from all levels. I will introduce you to some of the best women in the mobile space you may never have heard of.

Florence Ion

You may recognise Florence’s name from her Android Central days where she was one of the most influential writers on the platform. We can also find her work in PCWorld, Ars Technica to name but a few. If there was a major publication, I can guarantee you that Florence has written for them. A monolith in the tech world, she has now gone freelance with her own work. Bringing her unique style and flare to her new podcast All about Android.

You can keep an eye on Florence and all of her work over at https://florenceion.com

Trisha Hershberger

One half of the Newegg Livestream crew, Trish is one of those women who can put her hand to anything she touches. A talented Youtuber, she dissects everything you need to know about tech, gaming and everything in-between. As an avid PC fan, she can bring her unique perspective to the Newegg family to talk about the best and worst of mobile and PC hardware. If you haven’t looked at her content and you are a PC person – you are missing out.

You can catch Trisha over at Newegg.com or at her personal YouTube.

Lory Gil

Lory is the powerhouse behind iMore. As managing editor for iMore she runs a tight ship with getting the cutting edge of Apple content out for you all to read. All this hard work can often come under acknowledged given she is the gears behind the machine. If there is a post on iMore, you can be certain that she has had something to do with it. Be it; editing, scheduling, she’d had a hand in making that site work as streamlined as it is. So will throw her a follow and tell her that Spec sent you.

You can find Lory and all of her work over at iMore

Ara Wagoner

Ara Wagoner is a Writer at Android Central. Chromebook ifficiando and force of good. When she’s not writing help and how-to’s, she’s off dreaming about Disney and singing show tunes. If you see her without headphones, RUN. You can follow her on Twitter at @arawagco.

You can find her gushing about Chromebooks and all of her more recent work right here.

While I know that there are plenty of people who I’ve missed, who are the people who you think deserve recognition? Let me know in the comments down below with their twitter handles or articles so we can all share the great work that’s created by women in the industry.

Bite Size Reviews – Mom Hid My Game

If were growing up like me, you might have experienced Mom Hid My Game’s base scenario. Your Mom has stolen your game console, as the name of the game would imply, and you have to navigate an ever more elaborate way to get your game boy back to in order to play.

The puzzles were often intuitive. Checking the game boy behind a bookcase, or distracting your mom on the couch so you can get the game boy back. But often they were equally bewildering; cultural signals such as looking under a cushion that would be used to sit on were for someone who could be dealing with someone who wouldn’t be so in tune with other cultures.

One aspect that was credit to Mom Stole my Game was the fact that all the levels are short in nature. For each puzzle the rooms are the same (by in large) so you get a sense of where things are easily placed. Every time the game makes it clear what the threat to your success is, and it has very straightforward clues to your success.

Failure states are always quick and if you don’t find the right answer the first time around, it’s easy to leap back into action.

The only downpoint I can say about it is for accessibility. 

This can become one of the biggest frustrations of the game, as these have been hard to time, even for someone who is ablebodied. And there was no way to make it any easier! Ruling out some of the final act of Mom Stole My Game

Not to get spoilers-as it ‘s not worth spoiling this ending. I would encourage players to see Mom Stole My Game ‘s journey through to its end, however. In the final act, there is a marvelous piece of game design and narrative direction that brings the players through a journey of connection to technology and how it affects your relationship with those near you.

Top 10 Nintendo Switch Games of 2020

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This list has no strict rules except for one – where possible to avoid remasters. I’ve also tried to keep the list specifically to one entry per genre where possible. So that there is a variety of options for people with all tastes and interests.


Super Mario Odyssey

Join Mario on a huge, globe-Join Mario on a huge, globe-trotting 3D adventure and use his awesome new abilities to gather Moons to power up your airship, the Odyssey, and save Princess Peach from Bowser’s wedding plans!


Katamari Damacy Reroll

An exception to the rule of no remasters has to be broken for Katamari Damacy ReRoll. This is a piece of art that needs to be experienced by every Switch owner. When the King of all Cosmos destroys the universe in a drunken haze, it comes down to you, the Price to put everything back together again. How do you do that, I hear you ask? By rolling up the entire cosmos to make back up the sky.


Xenoblade Chronicles

If you only play one JRPG on the Switch, let it be Xenoblade Chronicles definitive edition. Yes, I know it’s technically a remaster too, but its an important addition to your library. Xenoblade Chronicles is easily one of the finest games ever created, and if you don’t believe me, take a look at some lets plays or some walkthroughs. You will not be disappointed.


Stardew Valley

While Stardew Valley can be played on many platforms, on Switch is where it shines. It’s perfect for pottering around the house and then slipping it into the dock. Or take it on communities where you can get lost in your own little farming world where you can do nothing at all or focus on restoring buildings and delving into mines.


The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild

The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild was not what most people were expecting. For a series that is so linear in its narrative and progress the last thing that long term fans were expecting was an open sandbox experience. This allows the player to approach Breath of the Wild in a whole new way, which is any way they want. If you wanted, you could march straight out to contend with Gannon straight away. Or you can lurk in forests to try and find the master sword and everything in between. It is as limited as your imagination is.


Mario Kart 8 Deluxe

If you own a Nintendo Switch and you don’t own Mario Kart 8 what are your reasons? This is a wonderful kart racing experience one that stands up to all of the series additions so far. Race solo or connect with friends the choices are you! You can also participate in online tournaments to test your skills against other players.


Pokemon Sword

Pokemon finally makes its long-anticipated arrival on the Nintendo Switch. First, with Pokemon Let’s Go! A warm-hearted and gentle introduction for new and old players alike to experience Pokemon for the first time on Nintendo Switch. Pokemon Sword and Sheild offer an experience unprecedented in Pokemon history. A feature-rich experience, from its world’s descriptions, visuals, to the Pokemon you encounter in the wild. The world feels real and vibrant, with little touches throughout so that you know that the love and care you expect from this 20-year-old franchise is right here. From online battles with other trainers to the upcoming expansions arriving in Summer and Winter of 2020. There has never been a better time to step into the world of Pokemon.


Captain Toads Treasure Tracker

First debuting in Super Mario World 3D World, Captain Toad was an optional character for people who could find and help guide Toad through some puzzles. This is a full-fledged installment for Captain Toad where you are whisked away to a charming world. While it may look a little child like there is a lot to love about it and a lot to complete in this sweet and generous installment.


Super Smash Bros Ultimate

Could you really call this a top 10 list without Super Smash Brothers being at the top spots? The legendary battle brawler comes to Switch, a series that needs no introduction. Regardless if you are new to the series or a veteran in the Smash scene. There is no doubt what so ever that there is a lot of life to be found when you find your character.


Animal Crossing: New Horizon

Easily one of the games that took the world by storm during what has been an insane 2020 was Animal Crossing: New Horizons. Friends, family, lovers, and friends came together in a way that we haven’t seen in years. Building and creating their own islands. It has brought people together from all across the globe to an experience that otherwise with the global pandemic that struck the world would never have been able to accomplish otherwise. 

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Top 10 Xbox Games of 2020

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As we are getting into the Xbox One latter years and with the announcement of the Xbox Series X launching in the holiday season of 2020, it’s time to take a look back into what games are the must plays of a generation. This list has no strict rules except for one – where possible to avoid remasters. I’ve also tried to keep the list specifically to one entry per genre where possible. So that there is a variety of options for people with all tastes and interests.


Gears of War 5

Players step into Kait Diaz’s shoes for the first time who, after the events of Gears of War 4, is struggling to come to grips with her mother’s demise, unravel her family tree’s warped origins and cope with her own emotional baggage. Meanwhile, humanity is once again being attacked-this time by the Swarm, the heir to the Locust horde.


Halo 5 : Guardians

Of course, a franchise that has long defined Xbox as a platform is Halo and Halo 5: Guardians is a worthy addition to the series and our list of the best Xbox One games. This is the Halo game for Xbox One you don’t want to miss, with both a single player campaign and the usual thrilling multiplayer combat.


Sea of Thieves

Rare’s Sea of Thieves swashbuckling adventure lets players take on the role of a pirate sailing the seas of a fantastic world – either alone or as part of a crew of up to four. If you want to concentrate on trade, treasure hunting or plundering others’ loot is up to you. This is a perfect title for those who want to play in an open-world setting with others, plus it doesn’t look too shabby at all! A recent Anniversary Update has also breathed new life into the World of Thieves.


Sunset Overdrive

As it was a launch title for the Xbox One, it is quite possible that people have slept on Sunset Overdrive. Sunset Overdrive is a shooter action-adventure game developed by Insomniac Games and published by Microsoft Studios. The game is set in 2027, in Sunset City, a futuristic metropolis. The player controls a FizzCo employee who has to fight off the OD, short for Overcharge Drinkers: humans who have become mutants after drinking FizzCo’s energy drink. The player character can run wall-run in the dystopian Sunset Area, use zip-lines, and grind rails to navigate through it quickly, with a wide arsenal of weapons to be used.


Fortza Motorsport 7

One of its best is also the latest entry from the celebrated racing series of Turn 10 Studios to speed its way onto Xbox One. Especially if you are someone who likes to spend time tuning all kinds of real-life cars and then enjoying their results on the road, Forza Motorsport 7 will surprise you with its 700 car range and almost unlimited ways to customize them.


Ori and the Will of the Wisps

Easily an all-time fan favorite. Ori and the Will of the Wisps is just a joy from start to finish. Ori and the Will of the Wisps is a Metroidvania video game platform adventure developed by Moon Studios and released by  Xbox Game Studios for Xbox One and Microsoft Windows. Unlike its predecessor Blind Tree,  Will of the Wisps relies on “soul ties”  that are positioned manually rather than autosaving. 

For a system of “shards,” which can be bought or found in the game to update or change Ori ‘s stats and attacks, the sequential update scheme of the first title was discarded. Ori’s attacks can be managed through a convenient radial menu, and orbs can be found throughout the map to boost Ori’s health and energy.


Hello Neighbour

Hello Neighbor is a survival horror stealth game developed by Dynamic Pixels, a Russian videogame developer, and released by tinyBuild. The goal of the game is to sneak into the basement of the neighbor’s house in order to discover the secrets of your mysterious neighbour. Taking on the lore and theory crafting following games with simular mysterious themes like Five Nights at Freddys and Bendy and the Ink machine. Hello Neighbours themes and overall style is promised to leave players scratching their head.


Dying Light The Following

Dying Light is an open world first person survival action horror adventure video game developed by the Techland Polish game studio and published by Warner Bros. It features a dynamic day and night cycle enemy-infested, open-world city with climbable structures that support a fluid parkour system. The day-night cycle dramatically changes the game, as the zombies become more aggressive and harder to deal with during night time.



You can’t talk about Xbox games and not mention Minecraft and just what a sensation the game has been since Microsoft acquiring Mojang and the behemoth moved into Microsofts care. Explore endless worlds and build everything from the simplest to the greatest of castles. Play in creative mode with unlimited resources or explore the world deeply in survival mode, craft arms and armor to fight dangerous mobs.


The Outer Worlds

Lost in space while traveling to the furthest end of the galaxy on a colonist rocket, you wake up decades older than you thought, only to find yourself in the middle of a dark plot that seeks to overthrow the Halcyon world. As you explore the farthest reaches of space and find a host of factions all wrestling for power, who you decide to become will determine everyone’s fate in Halcyon.

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As soon as these shackles come off you’ll come home,

Little do you know the shackles were never locked,

as the only person who bound you was yourself.

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Top 10 PS4 Games of 2020

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As we are getting into the PS4 latter years and with the announcement of the PS5 launching in the holiday season of 2020, it’s time to take a look back into what games are the must plays of a generation. This list has no strict rules except for one – where possible to avoid remasters. So I’m sorry but the Last of Us and Uncharted will not be making the list. I’ve also tried to keep the list specifically to one entry per genre where possible. So that there is a variety of options for people with all tastes and interests.


Nier, Automata Game of The Yorha Edition – PlayStation 4

Nier: Automata is one of those games that the less you say about it the better. It’s a thrilling and engaging ride from start to finish. A game that demands the hours that go into it to get the most out of your time with it. This is not a game for those who are looking for a quick experience. Nier demands your attention and the only way to treat this dystopian science fiction is to go into it with an open mind and to expect the unexpected.

Glory to Mankind.


God of War Hits – PlayStation 4

Kratos is someone who needs no introduction to long time Playstation fans. Known for slash and burning his way from the deep realms of Hades to the top of Olympus. The 2018 installment of God of War finds us with an older and more refined Kratos, who takes on a journey with his son Atreus to head to the highest point in the realm to spread the ashes of his recently departed wife. This adventure spans the entire realm of Midgar and beyond, and together both father and son learn the meaning of family and how there is no peek high enough or valley low enough to keep family apart.


Persona 5 Royal: Standard Edition – PlayStation 4

Easily one of the most stylish and universally adored JRPG of the modern age. Persona 5 Royal is the semi-sequel to 2017’s critically acclaimed Persona 5. Persona 5 Royal is Persona 5 + and adds more story elements to the already brilliant base story. For those who have never heard of the Persona series, it is a story about a group of thieves who travel into people’s subconscious to reform people from toxic or evil behavior. Traversing this world they utilize the power of their alternative personalities or Personas and are able to use grand forms of magic to achieve their aims. Your player character is falsely accused of assault while trying to intervene in the attempted abduction/assault of a young woman. With a year of probation now under your belt, you’re sent to a family friend’s coffee shop where there you are to attend a new high school and try to keep your head down. But things start to go awry on your very first day where you meet a new friend and a mysterious cat.



It might surprise some readers to find this Souls game as the one of the generation. But for me this comes at a time in FromSoftwares development where they have really honed in the formula for what makes a Souls game great, but turns it on its head with a shift from more defensive tactics into aggressive moves. Bloodborne is about agility and the ability to take calculated risks while trying to outfox your opponents. It takes place in the most haunting realm of Yharnam where there was so much opportunity to delve deeper into what the world has to offer.


Dragon Quest Builders 2 – PlayStation 4

The much awaited sequel to the excellent Dragon Quest Builders comes Dragon Quest Builders 2 which does everything you’d ever want to from a sequel. More, and better. And it does so in spades having literal worlds to explore now, not just set areas where things get reset and mercifully no bosses that are illogical to the objectives of the main campaign. A stellar script suitable for kids and grownups alike. An expanded and more nuanced crafting system. It’s an absolute must.


Final Fantasy XV: Day One Edition (PS4)

Easily one of my favourite games of all time. FF XV is just a joy from start to finish. The starting scene sets up what the tone of the rest of the game will be for you. This is a coming of age story where you’re forced to watch a bunch of boys grow up a little too fast when their world turns upside down. It’s a testament to the bonds of friendships and what one must go through in order to grow. It’s sometimes silly, sometimes serious and sometimes sad. But it’s a journey worth taking.


Hellblade: Senua’s Sacrifice (PS4)

Hellblade Senua’s sacrifice is something very special. As someone who deals with mental health issues – that are often fairly well documented in this blog – I’m always empathetic to the struggles of people with mental health difficulties. Senua’s situation and her journey is very relatable. It’s a crippling tale and often is one that is very difficult to walk through. I know personally I found walking in her shoes and seeing her face her demons to be tremendously tough, but its an experience that – like most things in life – can only be appreciated by the time you’re able to look back and see how far you’ve come.



It would be remiss of me to leave Fortnite out of this list. From the way it has introduced gaming into homes to making prime time media, it’s undeniable to say that Fortnite has surpassed its name as transformative media. It’s sparked dance classes based on characters’ movements or dances in-game. There have been multiple books on it as well as a ton of merchandise. So much so, if you go into clothing retailers on your local high street you would be able to pick up a Fortnite shirt somewhere. As its seasons roll on its popularity shows no sign of ceasing. A tribute to the mechanics of this battle royal shooter.


Shovel Knight (PS4)

There were lots of choices for platformers for this console generation but the one that sticks out the most in my mind is Shovel Knight. Be I a fool for the graphic style or simply just watching too much Game Grumps, Shovel Knight has managed to plant itself as a favorite of mine. From creatively stunning level design to inventive co-op options to a fabulous sequel and add ons. If you’re into platformers and haven’t played it – its some of the best that there is to offer.


Rocket League Collectors Edition (PS4)

When you think racing games on PS4 Rocket League always seems to rear its head time and time again. It’s not too surprising to see why. This co-op driving game is easily accessible to new players while still proving a suitable challenge for experienced drivers. It certainly comes under the descriptor of “easy to pick up and hard to master” there will never be two matches that will be the same. With its unique options that unlock for your car customization the possibilities to express yourself are endless. And with online matchmaking, it’s an easy recommendation for anyone who owns a PS4.

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Poetry [Untitled Series] – 5

I wonder if there will ever be a time when I stop









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Poetry [Untitled Series] – 4

You chisel away at me until you get it to fit into a mould of you’re making.

Then you continue to chisel it.

You watched me break and bend and break and bend

Into the shape you wanted to make.

Blemishes and imperfections cured and purged and purified in fire and cold.

only to realise you can’t make gold into silver

And you decided that gold just wasn’t for you.

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